About 6 months ago, I started working for my city's newspaper company, by a referral from a friend. That "friend" was the guy I was dating at the time, but considering that he turned out to be a total ass, it didn't exactly last long. There, I met one of my managers, and we quickly became friends. We used to hang out with our other managers outside of work, and maybe 4 months ago, he showed an interest in me. We began dating unofficially, and of course, in secret from our coworkers.
Honestly, I don't think i've ever been so comfortable and happy with a man as I was in that time. Though he has a history for being quite the playboy, he proved to be different with me. He decided that we wouldn't have sex until we were in an official relationship, and shared many intimate details about his family and past with me. Not to mention, he was risking his job by dating me.
Things ended in a way that never made sense to me. On the monday, we were together, going out for lunch and spending time, and on the thursday, he ended things. What he said, was that we couldn't be together with me because of work, since he was currently in the process of moving up in the company. He also said that he was "indecisive" and didn't want to hurt me. I was so caught off guard, on the Sunday of that week, we were talking about making it official, then this? I was obviously upset, and after that, we avoided talking to one another for some time.
Since then, the majority of my coworkers have found out about our having dated, and i've just found out recently that his boss also knew. When he told me that, I obviously wondered if his boss must've told him to cut me off completely. But on the other hand, my coworkers who really don't know him well are CONVINCED that he's not a good guy to love. It's difficult for me because he was so gentle and kind with me, he never wanted to hurt me or touch me indecently, so I can't really understand.
It's been two months now and I'm still not over him, though he's clearly over me. He's made note of telling me a few times that he has no social life because of work and still hasn't a new girlfriend. I don't know what to do, I don't want to let go of my feelings for him, because my gut tells me that things will change for the better with time, but is this just wishful thinking?
Hopelessly waiting, at the moment..