Hi there, I been thinking this almost for a month. Love problem. I stumble this love forum, hope you guys can help me.
So here's my story. I been in a relationship for 7 yrs but on and off, cool offs, break ups,we argue even in a small things,we have different outlook in life, we broke up and then we get back together again. A repeating scenario in the whole 7 yrs. Although we also have some happy memories but they seem to fade away because of arguments. Sometimes I am not happy with him, or maybe we became too comfortable to each other to the point that spark dont exist anymore. So i broke up with him and I am a happy single for more than 2 yrs.
And just last year July, he came back to me and asked for another chance. He was very different now. He is now a Christian,and that was I am asking to God after we broke up, to give me a man with a Godly heart. So I gave him a chance believing this might work now, thinking that love the 2nd time around is sweeter. We get along for few months, I know I am happy but then after 2 months he fly to Dubai to work there. Before he go, he gave me an engagement ring. I said yes. He said he need to go for our future, for wedding expenses and buying a home. He planned to come back after the working contract and then we will get married. I am so excited that time.
We do skype call everyday since he fly to Dubai. I knew that I love him but as days, months passed by, we do skype like once a week or trice a month, only chats because I am busy at work on the time he is available. and he's at work when I am available. We started to argue again over the phone and seems like old days came back. I tried to understand him, be patient but I am not happy anymore. I was seeking for more. There is something missing inside me that i cant explain. Maybe his companionship, because we just started again but then he left so fast. I understand that its for our future but sometimes I am not happy.
I was bored, have nothing to do, so I played this online game Wartune. I been addicted to it. spent more time on games, my work is also online, so I still have time to play when run out of tasks. I meet this guy on the game. We were just friends on the games, he started to help me on game quest, chats and then he added me on facebook and we exchanged numbers.
The problem started there. After couple of months playing the game and exchanging number and facebook, he said he likes me, he loves me. he is courting me online and said he is willing to come to my place to meet me. I ignored him at first, taking it was a joke because it's just online. Its hard to believe that he loves me, we havent meet yet.
He gets more intense in telling his feelings for me everyday. As months go by, I can tell that he is really serious and really wants to meet me. He knew that I already have a boyfriend but he still wont stop. He also knew also that my boyfrnd is far from me and maybr thats why he has guts to come and meet me. We are in the same country, so meeting is very easy.
I am writing you this because I feel so confused, I am weird lately like I cant sleep because I think about him, daydreaming. I wanted to meet him too, I am so happy when he chats me, he has humor and he can always makes me laugh, which is opposite to my boyfriend. I feel inspired. It's like I play the game because he is there. He's been courting me for a month and I wanted to know him more. I think I like him already but im not so sure. I dont understand myself lately. I wanted him to visit me but I am so guilty with my boyfriend. I even reject his call before because of the game and because he is there helping me in my quest. I know it sound so stupid but he makes me crazy already. I tried not to play few days to stay away from him, but he keeps texting me
What I am going to do? What will I tell to my boyfriend. I dont want to hurt him because its not right and he dont deserve it. I really felt the guilt because he is sacrificing working in other country just for me but I think I'm falling in love with this guy online.
Please help me what to do..