Hi.
I have a problem I would like some help and advice with.
a few months ago I was on holiday abroad with the lads. one evening whilst there I got VERY drunk (to the point of not remembering barely anything).
On that evening whilst I was asleep in bed, my friends brought some girls back to our apartment and the girls came into my room and woke me up. My friends have told me that one of the girls kept trying it on with me from the start, (rubbing my chest etc) and I kept saying no I dont want to do anything. (I cannot remember any of this) but my friends told me they left me alone in the room with her for around half an hour. However when I woke up I had very slight flashbacks of her saying to me "you have cummed on my hand". My friends have also told me that I was in bed with the girls and although I kept saying I dont want to sleep with any of them and telling them to leave me alone I did tease one of them by pretending to "hump" her (fully clothed). Later on in the evening I went back to my bed and she again followed me and tried it on and my friend has told me I had to shout him in to my room and plead with him to sleep next to me so the girl would leave me alone and I could sleep, and I got very angry and told her to get lost.
It scares me because all I can remember is her telling me I have cummed on her hand and I can remember no more.
I am a good man, I love my girlfriend more than life itself and I pride myself on being a good man.
Since this has happened I have been so traumitised and frightened of losing the girl I love that I have had to go on medication and go to see a counsellor.
I am desperate to tell my girlfriend so we can move on, but I am frightened she will leave me.
I know I made a mistake by getting very drunk and blacking out and I regret that more than anything I ever have. But my question is this.
If I tell my girlfriend, is she going to leave me over this. She claims to be madly in love with me but is this a breaking up offence?
Thanks