Hi everyone, im new to the page. Please can i have some advice, i have made a huge mistake. I have been
In a relationship for coming upto seven years and i absolutely love my partner to bits. About a year and a
half ago i started a new job & me & my partner were going through a rough patch at the time & i started
talking to one of the boys in work and he seemed overly nice to me & sayin nice things to me and being
really sweet to me & it made me feel cheered up for awhile (im on anti-depressants) i think i liked havin a good friendship He knew i thought he was a nice boy (nice to get on with) & then one day in work he gave me a kiss on the cheek & said he liked me alot. We kissed once but it wasnt like a proper kiss, as my head kept makin me think of my partner & it just felt all wrong. My head was confused as i was going through a rough patch with my partner but i knew no matter what that deep down i really did love my partner. This boy in work picked me up once to go to the cinemas & another time for a drive in the car but nothing happened. He tried but i refused him as it didnt feel right at all and i cudnt stop thinking of my partner & he asked me to go to a hotel for the night with him which i declined. I couldnt ever live with the guilt of doing that to my partner & i never ever would. I have never done this sort of thing before and would never do it again but everything else the boy in work offered to me i refused. He told me he'd leave his girlfriend for me too but i wouldnt do nothing with him or go out anymore with him. I think he got abit fed uP with me in the end because he couldnt get nothing from me. My partner found my diary and read it and was very upset & we have split up but i love him so much. I hate myself and i cant believe how stupid ive been. I do love my partner very much but i think ive lost him for good. Id do anything to get him back but can someone help me out abit please?
I really appreciate any comments
Thanks