Hey all,
I need some advice with my current situation. It's long, so bare with me. She was my first love. So was I. We started talking nine years ago when we were still young. We were just attracted towards each other, couldn't resist each other's present. We always felt connected. We loved each other dearly. The sad thing is we had to be apart against our own will because we studied at different schools and it was almost impossible for us to meet and see each other. So we decided to go our own ways.
Time went on and four years later we bumped into each other a couple of times, once in my school during an inter-school competition and another time at a different place. These fateful meetings rekindled the spark and later that year we started talking again over the internet. Not long after that, knowing how well we already knew each other, we decided to be together again. Things were great, there was nothing more I could ask from her. We just felt so compatible with each other. We could just talk and entertain each other the whole day without making much effort. From that moment I knew she was the one I want to spend with for the rest of my life.
A year had passed and things had never been better between us. Although we still couldn't see and meet up anytime we wanted to because her parents were strict. So we talked a lot on the phone. We went out to the beach at times, went for movies, had lunch and all. It was all great until I was rewarded a scholarship to study abroad that year. We agreed that we would try a long distance relationship and we did. We tried our bestest to keep our relationship alive, (or at least I did) I called her every weekends but it did not last long. Around the same time I flew, she got into a technical school and met a guy. I guess she fell in love. And I guess she just couldn't stand and got tired being in a long distance relationship. So after a few months, she decided to break up with me. She dumped me for this guy. But I couldn't just put the blame on her for what she did. It was my decision too to take the scholarship.
I took the fall and I never felt so down in my entire life. I just had to accept and respect her decisions. She needed someone who could be around her, take care of her. Obviously the guy had the best advantage of winning her heart compared to me. I was thousands of miles away. So I had to give up and let her go. It was the hardest thing to do. I fought all these three years just to move on. I've been going out with a few girls but none made me feel the same way as she did. We lost contact, which made it a little easier at least. This month, it would be the third year since we broke up.
Then, out of the blue, a little over a week ago, she said hi on Facebook chat. She added me on Facebook a couple of weeks ago but I ignored her, thinking that she added me by accident, you know through the e-mail contacts method? But I was wrong. We started talking again. Just like how we were since the first day we knew each other nine years ago. We still connect like we always do. We really enjoyed each other's company very much just like how we used to. Then, she confessed that she still loves me and she misses me. She said all the things I wished she did when she broke up with me three years ago. It's like our love is rekindled once again and we allowed ourselves to fall in love with each other one more time. At one point, I feel so ecstatic just to hear that she still have feelings for me all along all this time. At another point, I felt guilty. The thing is, she's still with the guy she had dumped me for.
She's stuck in a love triangle. I said to her that this is not fair for her boyfriend and that if anything happens, I would be more than ready to back out from this. Besides I'm still here on my scholarship, just a few more years left. She just doesn't know what to do, who to choose because she loves him too but she doesn't want to let me go again. She said she would rather be single than to choose. Well, she can't have everything.
We knew we love each other from the start. We've been in love for nine years, for God's sake! For me, it has always been her. Likewise, for her.
I just don't know what to do now. We finally talked on the phone today after years of absence. She has always been the person I want to spend with for the rest of my life. I'd do anything to be with her again. But I don't want to tell her what to do because it has to be her choice whom she want to be with.
What should I do?
Once, I said to her: "If I love you enough to let you go, will you love me enough to come back?"