Hello all. I need advice.
I have been very good friends with this girl for around 7+ years. Around a year ago we started sleeping at each others houses and fooling around, usually leading to 3rd base (her recieving).
We have never had sex nor has she ever given me hand or oral relief. I am about 60% sure she is a virgin, we don't talk about sex stuff.
My problem is that I really like her. She went away on holiday and ended up in a casual thing with some guy, not sure how far they went.
Days before she left I went down on her and days after she came back I went down on her. I thought ok, if someone nice looking came up to me on holiday I wouldn't say no either.
Now he has been to stay with her once and is going to live close to her and she doesn't know what to do.
I feel completely used and think she only uses me as a placeholder before she gets a boyfriend and as a mastabatory aid. I have kept doing it for so long because I enjoy it and had hopes of her returning my favors and us eventually having sex.
I'm really worried about what will happen. If she ends up in a relationship, I know we will not be good friends anymore. I really like her but realise she will never go out with me or even have sex with me. To lose one of my best friends of nearly 8 years would be heart breaking but I can see this on the horizen.
Anyone else been in this situation or have any advice?