My girlfriend broke up with me yesterday because she could not get over an issue from my past.
Over a year ago, I ended a relationship with a married woman that I was involved with. Being involved with her was the biggest mistake I made in my life. I regret every second of it. What made it worse was she became pregnant with what is believed to be my child. Again....This is not a topic to discuss my horrible mistake...I don't need to hear it because I already know it.
So a year later, I meet this incredible girl, whom I told everything up front before we started dating. This is not something I would want her to find out down the road. That is not fair to her. We had seperate apartments, but she was pretty much living here for the last month.
Last week she lost her job and is in the process of finding a new one. I know she is horribly stressed, but along side that, she became bothered by my past and how horrible it was for someone to do that, and the result being a child. She wouldn't be able to look at our kids without thinking about it.
She trusts me fully, and knows I would never go through hell like that again, but after a week of sadness she came to the realization that she would not be happy with me, so she left me this past Friday.We still talk. It's hard because we both love each other very much.and she hates to hurt me like this.I guess what I'm trying to figure out is
1. can I ever fix this 2. should I just give her space and see if she comes back to me 3. just let her go.. or any other possible option.... I'm just very hurt and confused and it kills me that a mistake I made in my past will not let me go on with my life. I've accepted it....why can't she? Will she ever?......