Sup guys,
Ive been kinda depressed recently, racking my brain about that girl and i cant come
to a solution which is why i really hope you guys can help me out 😩
but let me just start from the beginning...
So there is this girl who i knew from different parties and stuff but never had the courage to speak to her and then, two years ago, she came to my class and sat next to me since she recognized me yeah whatever... Anyway we started talking more and more and became best friends ...even more than that. Like we couldnt imagine a day without calling eachother in the morning to make sure we are awake and phone eachother for a good night call. We could talk for hours! Then we came to this point where we both developed feelings for eachother but couldnt really admit it because we where afraid to destroy the friendship.
However a couple of months ago we were talking after a couple of drinks and kinda admited that we have feelings for eachother but it was complicated.
A week later a couple of friends and I were partying at her place. They all left and it was just the two of us. She asked me if i could bring her to bed cuz she felt tired...then we started making out...it felt soooo right. As if we were surpressing our feelings to let them all out at this moment. It was amazing.
However we kept doing this friends with benefits thing for like 3 months and we loved it! She called me at nearly every possibility to come over!
But then, i think its two months ago now, she started making excuses why i couldnt come over and i didnt really overthink it... But after a month i felt skeptical and talked to her about it. She said she did that to avoid hurting my feelings but she wants to "find herself" and start working out and change herself and stuff...
I didnt really get why she did that cuz she was clearly enjoying our kind of relationship but i didnt wanna lose her as a friend so i said that it was Ok.
The problem is now...it really isnt ok.
Were talking everyday for hours and I know she still likes me cuz when im mad at her or ignore her phone calls she starts crying and tries everything to make it up.
But i just cant stand talking to her on saturday mornings after she was partying with her friends and telling me stories about guys she met and stuff...
I really tried my best to ignore that and just stay friends but i just cant...
Any advice what i could do?
My dream scenario would be to get back to being friends with benefits.
I mean that would at least be something...
Anybody thinks this is possible?
I could really use some help right now....