A shock to my system!

[Rosebud]

Prepare yourself for a moderalty long story.

Well over the weekend One of my very old friends had gotten my email address somewhow and sent me an email (kinda creepy actually). See I had dated this guy from middle school into high school and then a year after we broke up he came out of the closet and told everyone he was gay. We lost contact for several years and then later on I started dating a guy named Matt and found out he was best friends with my old crush (gay guy). We all hung out all the time and got really close. Matt and I lived together for like a year and then I broke up with him because he had wanted to get married (both 19 at the time) and I wanted to live my life more or less. Anyhow we ran into each other over the years and had given it another try and to this day I can't remember why it all ended.

Anyhow, my gay friend sent me an email out of the blue and told me he's living in Washington D.C and wants to talk with me soon to say hi. No big deal. Then he told me Matt married the girl he dated after me that had a child. I guess they got married this past October and are now expected a child of their own. I'm very happy for him and for my friend. But I feel a little jealous maybe? I don't know how to describe it. It's not like I miss him or anything but, it's like I feel hmm, wonder what would have happened if we would have stayed together. Don't get me wrong I love my BF and I wouldn't change a thing about my life including my daughter, who wouldn't even be around if I hadn't met my bf. I don't know maybe it's just weird because I know his wife and she was actualy an ex girlfriend of someone I dated after Matt. Small world I know! Or maybe it's because I know how this guy is and he holds his SO on this pedestal and is a very good guy and and i'm just jealous he has the situation I want! I feel bad thinking liek that, but I think that's mostly what it is.

I'm not really looking for advice, since none of this really bothers me I just think it's weird, and all this came as a shock to me yesterday.

[funsounds]

i think thats completely normal. i think about what if's from time to time...you know, when you run into this or that person...or you hear about this or that person. it passes...

[TAVS]

Thanks for sharing.

[clynn]

Yeah, I think it is pretty normal to feel like that when you hear about a blast from the past.

However, remember that often times relationships seem brighter in retrospect than they do while you're in them. The reality is that your relationship with Matt ended for a reason even if you can't completely remember it clearly right now.

How come you said "Kinda creepy" - just seemed like an old friend phoning to keep in touch....

[Tone]

Yup, grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.

[misombra]

wow something similar happened to me. i just found out last week that my ex just asked his girlfriend to marry him. i know my life is better now but i can't help but be a little jealous. so i understand.

[funsounds]

Yup, grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.

grass only looks greener on the other side of the fence...it's not...

[Tone]

Oh righto - that's what I meant.

[Mish]

Mmmm, sweet jealousy. I would use this introspection to find out what it is that you are missing in your current relationship, that you sometimes silently long or think Matt could provide

[Rosebud]

Oh come now Mish..that's obvious! His romantic side was very satisfactory! And it would be nice to have done things the proper way...you know get married, THEN have kids!

And I hear ya guys! Everything always looks better.

I said it was kinda creepy because I haven't spoken with my gay buddy in like 5 or 6 years and in that time my email and stuff have changed. It was creepy how he got it I guess, which I still don't know. Not a big deal, but caught me off guard! And may I add, this gay guy is of course very hot..It was funny he had girls flocking to him and when they knew he was gay it made them want him even more..LOL

[vashti]

I knew a boy (casually) in high school that was very popular with the girls, too. He ended up having a sex change operation after he grew up, or so I've been told.

[Rosebud]

LOL..... Oh my! Haven't come accross anything like that yet.. very weird!

[Rosebud]

Yea so I took my daughter into the Dr today and found out she has bronchiolitis on top of another cold she was just getting over. And to add to the mix, an ear infection as well.

We found out it's caused by allergies and she's ok but she's very miserable and if she can't sleep tonight we have to take her back to the doctor tomorrow to figure out what they are going to do about her ear infection.

[misombra]

try pouring a little hydrogen peroxide in her ear, give her a spoonful of apple cider vinegar with some honey and wash it down with lots of water. that should make her feel better.

didn't i recommend someone else drink vinegar?

anyway, only the apple cider kind.

[Rosebud]

I think you told Lloyd to drink it too.LOL

I thought you weren't supposed to give kids honey because of the bacteria in it?