The Result of my first opening to him!

[ColdSilence]

Hello~

First of all, i would like to let you guys know that this new forum is the consequence/result which refers to my previous one, " Mind to pay attention what i'm gonna say? ".
So if you would like to know the whole story just check it out.
Also i'll post its result, the detail of this forum, at that forum too.

Brief story:
i'm male, Bi-sexual. now i'm studying in Bachelor Degree.
And I would like to tell a guy that i'm interested in that i like him. But i'm not sure that i should do it or not so that i came here to ask you an advice.

Result:
Well, yesterday night i prepared myself about the thing i should say before going bed.
Then i woke up early in the following morning and went to school as usual. I knew this study schedule and my plan was to see him before his first morning class at the study room (outside).
But i made a mistake myself, i got the wrong room number, so i waited for him for one hour but he didn't show up.
Well, i though that he might skip his first class, after that i tried again to do the same thing, waiting for him, at his second morning class.
This second time, i waited for him again and i didn't wanna miss a chance so that i went to wait outside the second study room 30 minutes ealier from the exact study time.
I looked at my watch to check the time. The study class had started but he still didn't show up.
I waited for him almost a half hour after the class started. a few minuted passed by he walked very fast toward to me to attain his class (i stood at the door).
i asked him to stop. He did so.
i forgot all things that i prepared to tell him last night.
After introducing myself to him, i gave him a CD which i burned.
He seemed to be surprised about the CD, he thought that he asked me to burn it for him but he could not remember it.
I told him that i did it for him not myself, it's not his order.
Then i tried to tell him that the reason why i gave him a CD 'becase i like him.
You know it's not easy to say it because at that time i sensed that he didn't even know me and he felt nothing about me.
But i promised to myself that i must tell him so i spent a few minutes trying to say the the words " I like you".
i said those words stutteringly like
" Umm .... ahhh ... I I I .. umm... Damn! ... umm ...I like you. "

He said:
" Ohh... but you know i like girlstuff. "

After he finishing that sentence, i'm sure that he doesn't like me.
I said kept silent for a while and i said :
" Okay, i understand. It's okay for me"
"So see you, Bye"

I walked away after finsihing my last sentence.

Well, up to this point, now i think about myself how stupid i am and I do know that he does't like me.
I feel like i wanna cry and feel angry with myself at the same time.
But i'm not gonna cry. I forgive myself about this kind of thing.
I already made up my mind not to feel any bad about him.
Now i keep silent and let this one to be my good lesson.
It can teach me many many things about this like of relationship.
All i can do is to forget it and just get back to be my real self as usual - mosty i spend my time by listening to the music and reading books".

So ... that's all about my story.
i did it as i gave you guys a promise that i would tell you the result of my first.

Thank you!

[squirrley]

GOOD FOR YOU!!! You did it, it didnt pan out the way you thought or hoped for, but none the less, you stood your ground, and proved to yourself you have confidence, that's the lesson learned!

[lemonade69]

you did a lot more than i would have done in your situation....argh i still regret it, so kudos for you!

[IceQueen]

What do you mean -- "FIRST"?
There's clearly no future with this particular guy!

[ColdSilence]

Thanks a lot to squirrley. lemonade69,
You Both support me alot to make me feel better!

And To IceQueen,
this "First" is my real first, i never did it - to tell this kind of feeling to a guy - since yesterday i did it.

Even to my ex-girlfriends, i became her firend first before stepping any further to be her Boyfriend.

And i don't know maybe it's my first time or maybe my last time to this kind of thing to a guy.

Thank you, IceQueen for your report.

[IceQueen]

I thought you meant your first opening to him.