
Originally Posted by
Babydoll
I never cry over guys. And this guy is the most annoying, obnoxious, egotistical, cheeky, laid-back dickhead.. with whom I am incredibly compatible. I thought I'd be glad to be rid of him. Glad of a bit of space.
But since he left this morning.. well before he left this morning too.. I have been in hell of a state. And that's not normal for me. I'm a cold heartless bitch lol.
I haven't stopped crying all day. Every time I think of him.. I burst into tears. And everything reminds me of him.
As soon as he dropped me off I went straight upstairs and had a bath. That's a big deal for me. I never bath. I always shower. I haven't had a bath for 2 years. I've been lying on my sofa all day.. watching tv.. occasionally sobbing. What the **** is wrong with me?
He's gone to New Zealand.. I'll be joining him in about 7 weeks... so why the hell am I so upset? I never get like this. I'm way too realistic. I'm not into all that soppy.. romantic shit.
My head is hurting and I just don't feel like doing anything.
Cheer me up please. What can I do....?
Maybe you are not as heartless or cold of a bitch as you thought you were. Time to up your antiques? j/k
You're infatuated with this guy, obviously. That's the thing about feelings, they can become like drugs and people can become addicted to them. You know since he's away you won't be able to relive these good feelings so you're having withdrawal symptoms and you're craving him. I'm afraid the only way out is to focus your mind on something else. Something that emotionally and physically exhausts you so you don't have any more capacity to waste these thinking about him. Pick up a sport, hit the Gym, go running. Do something to concentrate your mind on something else.
Don't cry, don't regret and don't blame
Weak find the whip, willing find freedom
Towards the sun, carry your name
In warm hands you are given
Ask the wind for the way
Uncertainty's gone, your path will unravel
Accept all as it is and do not blame
God or the Devil
~Born to Live - Mavrik~