Since highschool, we used to talk a lot and we were seatmates. Even on vacations we would text each other during the long drive... Even in 1st year in college..
Then I stopped txting her for about a year to focus on our studies...
Then 3rd year college, I texted her again, knowing that her birthday is coming though i forgot the exact date so I asked her when XD...
I gave here PSP games because she was kinda bored with her games... I even took the time trying to find a gift for her in which I even had to look in every store in the mall coz I wanted something special for her and so... So we texted again up until early morning. My course in college was nursing while hers was BS Marketing so we were in different buildings but still within the campus. On her birthday, I even went to her fashion show thingy, an event in the campus, because she has a part in it. Had to wait until it was dark despite the number of quizzes nursing students always have...
I think she noticed that I was trying to be more than a friend to her... And so, when I noticed that, by being late in replying to texts, or not even replying at all, or just a simple reply, I gave her her gift and a letter of how I miss her and so, and also about asking her not to avoid me or destroy the friendship and wishing that we would still have communication between us.I gave the gift through her friend and I had to go face to face to her that to get her gift from her friend, which was late because time is really a special thing for pre-med students.
After I gave her gift, I texted that there was a letter in there and if the gift fit her...
And the reply was 6 "Thank you's"
Now she wont reply anymore to my mesages... So now I just text a quote and a gnyt or gmornin with her name... Stil no replys...
I'd never thought that she would react this way because in highschool I know that she is uhm a "good" girl....
She has never had a boyfriend not even once, doesnt drink alcoholic drinks, no smoking, but she does go in gimmicks or outings at night in a bar to dance with friends, no crushes except that actor in TV lol... I asked her and even her bestfriends and so...
Why break the friendship/communication? Now I feel that I don't want to meet her personally anymore but I feel that I love her and willing to wait until she graduates or so.... I wonder if I am reaching for a star that I could never possibly reach...








