Yeah i get what you're saying, cake. I felt the same way about many women i met however i must say that the whole thing has made me stronger. I don't get upset like i use to. It's also because for most part i understand where people's thoughts/actions come from. What you need to do is think about the life you want outside of relationships and as you work on that hopefully good things will happen relationship wise. I've noticed best things always happen when i don't go out looking for anything.
-to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.- e.e.cummings