Problems with trust

[Faithful`]

Ok so i don't really have any one to talk to about this and i feel like i am going insane at the moment. Hence, my decision to get some external ideas from some complete strangers that might be able so shed some light on the topic.

So my husband of 2 yrs, father of my 2 month old daughter, has had problems being truthful with me. Constantly lying, going online behind my back while at work to watch porn, put up ads on craiglist, have secret email accounts, secret phones hidden in his car, and having sexual discussions on the net with random people. He says that he never did anything phsyical, but the fact that he had secret mobile accounts and that he was only chatting to people around were he worked screams cheater! I kicked him out and since, we have decided to work on it, but this is his last chance. I have decided to accept what he has said to me as being the truth since he came clean about other things that i had no idea about all on his own as a sign of good faith. I think the stuff he told me is just the tip of the ice berg but i pretend that it is the entire truth.

Now he is trying really hard to get things back on track but i dunno. I has only been a month since this all happened. I just can't accept it. I'm treating him well, very nice to him n such, but on the inside i just don't believe anything he says. Even the simplest things. I have even stopped asking him any question, even the simplest ones like "how was ur day". I don't even bother because i think to myself, what's the point of asking if i can't believe anything he says anyway? Even when he is trying to b sweet and says things to me like "i love u more that life itself and i can't like without u". I just smile and think to myself, liar. U love ur lust more than me and u can certainly live without me.

I dunno, this is killing me! The suspicion, the questioning, the anxious feeling of wondering what he is doing every single second of the day. He leaves for work at 5.30am and comes home around 6.30-7.00pm every day. That's a lot of time to be constantly worried and thinking. I feel so exhausted from thinking and worrying. I feel like i am spiraling into depression. I love him very much, which is y i want to work on it, but i can't bring myself to loving him like i used to. It hurts having so much love in my heart that i can't show because i am too scared of what he might do to me again.

Am i being too harsh? Should i just forgive and forget and move on? Am i reading too much into everything?

[Ret]

The best thing to do is to ask him honestly and let him understand that you are doing the asking to show him that you care a lot of him.
You should also share to him, your doubts and your problems. This is not only your problem, but also his problem, and your relationship's problem.
As for now, don't think so much beyond what you see and what you hear - it will just ruin you brain.