opinion needed on behaviour v words

[broken6]

hi i really need a guys opinion on what my ex boyfriend is doing versus his words

we were together 11 years, have been broken up 2 mnths.

he seen a psychologist twice and she has been on holidays now for 5 weeks she will be back in a week and he will be going back

I have been seeing a psychologist now for 3 sessions and are continuing.

through this method we have both dicovered what we did to destory our realationship and how. I am making the changes needed.

When we first broke up he said he hoped we would get back together one day, he has explained this to me as. He is open to us in the future and will not close off to it at all.
2 weeks after the break up he told me he was not "in love " with me anymore
last week he told me he is ready to move on, and potentially find someone.
yesterday he told me i m the person he loves most in this world and he cares about what is going on with me very much.

these are his words
now his actions

we have a very close group of friends and when we are both there he is very quite and reserved.
he has not been hanging out with his best friend, at all.
he never did drugs before and is now doing cocaine, and every time he does it coincides with a time he has been particulary sad about me.
he is calling up a good friend of mine and crying his heart out about missing me and how lonley he is and how much he wants to talk to me.
he is spending money crazily that he was given by his grandparents for a house deposit.
he is at the gym twice a day running flat chat for an hour each time.
He is spending a lot of time at home.
he is posting his wereabouts on facebook ALL the time!

i feel like there is a clash between what he is saying to me (and i believe that he does believe what he is saying) and what he is doing.

I m dealing with me, working on myself and fixing my part of what went wrong in our realationship.

my question is he wants me to move on and stop hopeing to be back with him, but i feel like i should not give up hope just yet
not untill his words and actions are in sync

am i just seeing something that is not there? am i wrong to hope?

[Aniphilia]

Im a girl, not a guy but oh well. its hard to move on AND have hope isnt it? YES. I know, I am too. He sounds like he is all messy right now and his process is undefined to you and probably him too. Looking into what hes 'up too' can make it harder for you because lets face it, hope can keep you tied up in all this. if your find things out you can choose to store it as information w/o being emotionally draining for you if you are able to compartmentalize i suppose. but on the other hand if its squandering away your opportunity for growth than thats another. My 6 year relationship with my ex has me thinking about my lack of assertiveness and boundries and well I see what i think he needs to work on as something harder to overcome personally but we arent talking as i dont make contact and well if i get the opportunity in the future to lay it out than I will damn well do that. Is it hard for you to watch the damage he is putting himself through? Seems like when he cant distract himself he is overflowing with emotion and since it has to do alot with you its possible he will say things that are mixed up just like hes mixed up inside. Girl, if i knew what my ex was saying and doing pertaining to his feelings for me i would be more confused than I am knowing what i have concluded myself. But none of it is going to bring him back w/o him realizing them himself so we can reorganize our boundries, you and i, and if they return, for a chat or for life, we can say what we will and will not tolerate. My mantra as of late is: Trust the process.