I'm so confused. My ex and i dated for 6 months, and two weeks ago broke up, because of something not entirely my fault. My part in it is that I was a little insecure. I've been in love before, but nothing, nothing like this, it scared me. I was afraid to lose her, which I think is understandable when you meet someone who completely takes your breath away. I became a little jealous over nothing, and I know i shouldnt have and i regret it, I'm fine with it now though. But the last time it happened, she had alot of other stuff on her plate. Problems with her mom, friends issues which she took on herself, and other stuff. So she broke up with me, saying she couldnt deal with it.
This hurt. Obviously. I lost the best part of my life because she had too much on her plate? Nothing you hear about in normal breakups, no cheating, no loss of love, nothing.
And, to add to this, last wednesday, she sent me a giant message. Saying that she was dumb, and an idiot, and she felt horrible, said she was so sorry, and hoped I would forgive her. She added that she still loved me and missed me and wanted to be with me. Stupid me, I got to this message about 2 hours late, and when I talked to her, she was now confused again.
The problem is, her friends are giving her advice. Saying that I will never change, will never be fine, will always be insecure. This isn't true though, and NONE of these friends know me in the slightest. This is something I can change, its something thats constantly changing. But she is taking all her friends advice and not listening to her heart.
So, sorry about the giant backstory, but what do I do? How do i get her to listen to her heart? To do what she wants, which is to be with me. The message she sent was true, I know, everything in that message was her reacting to how she felt, she feels that way and thats what her heart wants. But how do i get her to listen to it.