Hi,
About 6-7 weeks ago my GF of 3 years broke up with me after i told her about a weird moment while i was hanging out with a female friend i made a while back. This girl invited me over to watch some DVD's movies/series she had, play some videogames and just hang out. Nothing unusual there i think, my GF has done the same a few times with male friends.
Anyway, we were talking about a videogame and i asked her to show the game to me so we went up to her computer room and she turned the screen on. She forgot that before i arrived she had been busy editing some homemade sexy pictures. Nothing vulgair, her "lady parts" were all covered up, mostly bikini / lingerie pictures she took to make herself feel attractive and for a guy she fancies.
I was feeling a little awkward and suddenly got very interested in the glass of cola i had in my hand as i assumed she would quickly close the pictures. But insted she started talking about and showing how she edited those pictures and baby pictures she took for friends and clients of her little amateur photo studio.
I figured maybe it wasnt bad enough to be fussing about and i let her show me the pictures but didnt comment on them other than a polite "yeah, nice pictures, and good editing", followed by changing the subject.
Well, my girlfriend was pissed off at me over this when i told her about these "sexy pictures". She thinks i showed sexual or romantic interest in this girl and is convinced i find this girl sexy. And that i am an asshole for letting her show me the pictures insted of declining. The thing is i only ever called her looking "good", never "sexy". I just called the pictures sexy as that is what their intended concept or goal was.
But yeah i should have looked away, that was my fault and i took the blame for it and promised not to do something like that again. But i wasnt oggling at her body or anything. I didnt have sexual or romantic interest in this girl and still dont, and never will. Only for my ex-GF.
So my girlfriend broke up with me because she feels that i have shown interest in another girl and that she is no longer special to me and that i might aswell be with another girl. And no matter how often i try to talk to her about it and attempt to fix it or change her mind, she doesnt seem to believe me and she doesnt want to talk about it unless she wants to bring it up herself. Which has happened once last week but didnt change much as i didnt have the full picture in my head what exactly her issue was.
Mind you, in the 3,5 years that i have known her, i have only told her 1 little lie that didnt have any impact, so i seriously doubt i build up a reputation for lying. Infact, if i didnt come forward with this and told her about it because i thought it was weird and awkward, and i was feeling a bit guilty, she never would have found out.
So she wants us to be friends (with benefits), and that's pretty much what we have been since the break up. There are still strong feelings on both sides, and we both were deeply hurt by the break up.