I have been loosely dating this man now for 4mts. This particular man is adored by many. A charmer. A gentleman. Just well liked over all. Our sexual chemistry is perfect. I am in the process of my divorce being final....less than 30 days. He is aware of this, but has said he wants no committments. He is afraid I will jump into too much too soon. He has always made a point to distance himself after we spend time together he says because I am going through this divorce. I have never said I wanted more than someone to just "date"... not a fullfledged relationship. Just wanted to merely get to know one another. To see what happens in time.
It has ended up being a FWB situation with him but more for me. He says he only knows how to be single bc he has been single for so long. I told him that I am beginning to care about him. When we are together it is if we are in a relationship. It's more than sex. It's friendship. But, he says he can't give to me what I need. Instead of walking away, he continues to call every couple of weeks. Lately, he is becoming more and more distant after he spends time with me bc he knows how I feel. Yet, he calls me such a good friend. One that has changed his life.
To top it off, I have discovered he is also having sex with another woman besides me. But acts as if it is no big deal. And he considers her to be his "best friend." She lives an hour away. When we first met, he said he cared for her but distance was an issue. He said things may move forward with her...but never told me that they did! And Ive been told he sees her a good bit. I can't do this anymore. So, I went NC for days... then caved. I am just not the kind of person that can just walk away. I need closure.
I sent an email asking if we could just start over. Be friends. Just lunches now and then. To please reply, not to leave me hanging. His friendship meant too much to lose over sex and this distance game. And if he has friend zoned me just be honest. He won't remove me off fb. I texted him two weeks ago asking him if we could easily walk out of each others lives would that be okay with him... he didn't reply. I took it as a yes. He replied later with..."my nonreply was bc i had fallen asleep" (he works nightshifts).
So no answer so far today with my email... I'm getting distance again. And I'm hurt. Feel completely rejected like I did something wrong... I have been the kindest person in the world to him. I don't know how somebody so well liked by others in the public eye can be so damn cold and deceiving. He won't make up his mind what he wants. Sometimes me sometimes not.
Now, I want to go confrontational with him. We are both 40, and I think they disappearing act is so childish. I think he needs to own up and tell me face to face that he wants things to end. Meaning our friendship.
What should I do... I feel like I deserve more from him than this!