Hi everyone!
I started to write my story and after I wrote almost everything the post got lost
So I will write it again but surely with less detailes because I just can't write the thing again..
I've been married for 8 yrs. We are both (quite) young, with succesfull careers, not bad looking, with a nice house, travelling around and enjoying life with our biggest success - our to beautiful kids.
I thought our marriage was far from perfect, but still a very very good one...
Lately I noticed he was spending lots of time on his iPhone while starting to be quite cold towards me, so I decidet to "follow the situation" and payed more attention to what he was doing...So I realized he was messaging with someone on facebook but couldn't be sure who it was since I would recognized the same picture but seing from far away didn't know if it was a he or a she. It started to bother me, eating me from inside..I felt very bad...
One day, I got the chance and looked in his phone (I know I know I am not proud of it). He has a pass lock but I knew it. So I looked. I found out he is cheating on me..Not withone. But with at least 3 women. I was shocked, angry, miserable and sad at the same moment...My whole world fell apart.
I took some pictures of his screen, confronted him but without saying I looked in the phone. I told him someone has told me.
He of coure denied everything making me look like a neurotic crazy woman wich made me evem more angry...
He didn't know what I knew so kept on denying things for wich I have proofs. But stil....I cannot tell I have the proof...why? Because I know the moment I do that everything is over.....
I aked him to show me the messages telling him this way he could resolve all my doubts, but he didn't want to do that. Instead he got up at night and erased all his messages....
I start thinking of goint to one of those women (he even intoduced me once with her) to ask her directly, but I might not have the courage to do that
Then I started to try to find a way to hack theirs facebook accounts just to see .....To see what? I feel like I am trying to hurt myself even more....
I told hime I wnated a divorce..but I am not sure I want that..I don't know what to tell to the kids..they are so small ( 7 and 4)...He is attacking me saying I am not normal and saying nothing is true..but I know he is lying..so why? Why can't I just say: enough?? Why?
I am so sad...