I've tried figuring this out on my own, but end up feeling in turmoil over the whole situation. My girlfriend and I have been together for 6 years, and have a 5 year old child together. The relationship started off with us working together, then we partied together for a little while, and then became committed to each other. There have been good times and bad, with her being very insecure and jealous in the beginning, but I'm a very patient person, and have worked through my own faults while letting her deal with hers.
The situation that I am concerned about, though, is her behavior when we are out in public or having drinks at a bar. She loves to dance, and I do not fault her for that. The problem I have is that she dances very sexually, popping her a** to the floor, and just generally acting like she is at a strip club. The last time we went out, the band that was playing actually said that they need to install a stripper pole, and were making lewd remarks about her while I was in the bathroom. She did this in the beginning of our relationship, and because it was so fresh to both of us, I didn't have many issues. Now, after 6 years, though, I am seeing it as a problem and want to know if I am in the wrong or if her behavior is unacceptable. I try not to pay attention to her doing it while we are out, instead focusing on shooting pool or talking with friends, but it still bothers me that she does it in front of a bunch of people, yet won't do it for me in the bedroom.
This problem has come up before when we were at a party, and some guys were around that I knew were into her. She spoke to a friend on the phone, while talking outside away from everybody I overheard her ask "are the guys coming too?" and then when they got there she started dancing like this. When I told her I was ready to go home (drunk, at 2am, and not wanting to deal with some buffoons oogling over my girlfriend) she started to throw a fit, and cried outside in the truck saying that she couldn't do this anymore if this was how I was going to be. I don't know if I was being insecure and controlling, or setting boundaries for stuff that I didn't want to deal with. On one hand I think it is incredibly effed up that she was worried whether or not these guys were going to be there, and then knowing that she was wanting to dance in front of them, but on the other hand I tell myself it doesn't matter -- she's coming home with me, and I'd go alpha on their a** if they took it to that level.
I do not want to control her, but at the same time I feel like she is fueling her self esteem off of other men staring at her and thinking sexual thoughts and that bothers me -- almost makes me feel inadequate, that I can't provide what she's missing.
She likes to wear skin tight yoga pants everywhere we go, and it actually makes me uncomfortable being seen with her. I get stared at by the guys as much as she does, and I feel like, again, the only reason she does it is because she feels so lousy about herself that the only way she can fuel her self esteem is by having other guys staring at her with desire.
Please help me with some advice or something. I love this girl, she is a good mom to our daughter, a good friend to me, but when it comes to the relationship and intimacy I feel like there are things that get in the way, this being one of them.
Is this something I should just get over and let her be her, and accept the behavior? Or am I right in feeling like there is something wrong with this, and I shouldn't have to deal with it?
How do I go about approaching this situation without seeming like a little b**** and still keep both of our dignities in tact?