Please help, I'm lost.

[Bluey]

Hello everyone. I just need a bit of feed back.. Let me start out by saying I'm 15, turning 16 next month. My girlfriend is 14, turning 15 in Nov. We are both rather mature, or so we like to think, however, we are very different. We have been together for a little over 6 months now, and thats the longest I have ever been with a girl myself! She is shy, only dated 2 other guys, one of witch lasted 3 days. Thing is, this is not your normal relationship. We date online. I live in new york, she lives in Washington state. Now, yes. I know your all thinking "Why bother?" Well. Its simple.
I feel for this girl something I have never felt before, and tho I am only 16, I'm pretty sure its Love that I'm feeling. I would go to the ends of the world for this girl, do anything under the sun for her. We met on a popular game known as Minecraft. I fell in love with her the first time I spoke to her. Her personality was.. It was so amazing. So open, accepting, and just caring. So, I added her on Skype, and we became really good friends! Texting in school (Prob not a good idea, looking back =P ), Skyping with each other whenever possible, all that stuff! We even had a 13 hour skype call one day! It was great, and I really felt connected with her. That covers the first few months. Now lets go to our 6 month. For our 6 month, I mailed her a phone case she has really been wanting. It's very expensive, but worth it for her! Along with the phone case, was a 2 page letter explaining my feelings for her. I told her how much she means to me and that, even tho she is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life, I fell in love with her personality. Not her looks. This made her super happy and she loved it! Alright, now lets say.. 2 weeks go by. We are texting and she suddenly says "I think we are just to different." I ask her what she means and she says "We are just to different to be together, we argue alot and idk." Now, I'll admit, we were arguing alot the past week or so, but so what? So, I could feel she was going to break up with me. But, I didn't let her go that easy. I explained to her this, and this still holds true: I am like a knight in armor. My armor can never break, however she is inside the armor with me, holding me heart. If she decides to drop my heart and open the armor to leave me, I will die. This stopped her in her tracks. She said "I can't handle this right now." So, I said "Well, try to get some sleep, I'll talk to you in the morning. I love you." She replayed "I love you to."

Alright, 4 days go by, and everything seems back to normal! I have changed a little bit, backing off and letting her do whatever she wants. Trying my hardest to not be annoying, etc. Well, last night we got talking, and It was 8 Am, I had not slept yet, it was 5 am for her. We were both really tired. I asked her why good people get stuck with all the shit. She said "Thats what makes them good, that they deal with it all." And I said "Why can't we just be happy? Why do bad people get away with things, but good people get all the blame?" She said "Well, what is it that would make you happy?" I said "To one day have a family of my own. One were the mother and father are together and the kids can grow up the right way." She said "Then your already on your way there!" I said "But i almost failed." She said "How?" I replayed "You almost left me..." Then we started talking about how shes not the only girl out there and that I could find one better then her. I told her this was not true, and I still believe it to not be. She then said "I'm scared." I said "Of what?" She tell me "That I don't love you as much as you love me.." This crushed me a little.. But I didn't let it show. I said "What makes you think that?" She said "Idk it just seems that you love me so much more." Then I said I love you and went to bed. She did the same, saying I love you too.

Everyone whos reading this, I love this girl so much. I want to make her happy, I love hearing her laugh and seeing her smile. I just feel so deeply for her that I don't know what to do for her anymore. I know shes going to break up with me soon, but I'm not sure how to deal with that. I'm so attached to her, I have made my life about her.. If she leaves, I'll be honest, I'll want to kill myself. And I know, thats wrong and bad and blah blah blah, but i just.. I don't want to go through the pain again. I don't want to feel that. And not with her! Shes so perfect and.. I just don't know what to do. Someone please help me..

[rafterman]

Hello everyone. I just need a bit of feed back.. Let me start out by saying I'm 15, turning 16 next month. My girlfriend is 14, turning 15 in Nov. We are both rather mature, or so we like to think, ..

I got as far as this and stopped...too much BS in your post. It was like trying to crack the code of the enigma. Flesh out the guts of it and post it.

[4 ratties]

I would be scared straight too if I was a 14 year old girl and some boy acted like he was ready to Marry and have babies with me. This very young girl should be learning to apply makeup, going to the mall, collecting dolls, not in a serious online long term relationship. She's going to run scared any day now and she should. Sorry to be harsh.