This will be my very first post, so here it goes....
I been with my man for 7 years now. At first it was amazing, he was caring,loving,liked to do things together and always had a great time,always put a smile on both our faces. Now it's the opposite, but that's just how I feel. Personally I think the problem is my man's drinking. Every time he drinks to a certain extent his personality changes. He starts arguments with me, always telling me how I am bad and how I don't do this and that, he never mentions anything good I do for us. I got a new job a couple of months ago even though it doesn't pay very well I still try my best to make him happy and give him what he wants, even surprise him with little gifts. But when the drinking starts I know where it will lead to, we used to argue about it but now I find its useless arguing with a dunk person. I love him and I care for him so deeply, He tells me he's tired of me when he drinks,how I should leave the house,how I never let him do anything and always ask questions. First of all let me clear that, yes I may not be perfect but I never tell him not to do anything, he does what he wants and I never say anything. He even leaves the house sometimes when he's mad and comes back hours later and I dont even ask where has been, and as for asking questions I only do it because I want to have a normal conversation like for example if he talks to his sister I ask "oh is everything ok with her" and he makes it a big deal like I shouldn't be asking about his family, When someone text me though and he asks about it I tell him without hesitation. I may not be perfect but this it making my heart ache and my tears are running out. All last week he drank everyday and every night there was an argument about me.
I wish that he could see how hard I really do try to make him happy,how I take him wherever he wants to go since he doesn't have a license. I will do anything for him, he just got mad again, I cried and he walked away and went to bed. I can't talk to my friends or family because they wouldn't understand how I feel about him I love him with everything I have,but I'm just not sure if he feels the same way. I just want to know if anyone can relate or any advice on what I can do or talk to him about?..Thanks for reading.