why di i react so badly to this?

[mattlawson]

ive been dumped before and have no problem getting over it. i never acted needy or desperate.

but my last ex i was deeply in love with. i saw myself with her for along time, possibly marriage

its hard to explain but she just made me happy, i was in love

she dumped me though. she said i could be childish at times and could be a little annoying

i was hurt and upset and begged and pleaded for her back for like 2 months. i tried and tried and just came off as desperate and needy.

now looking back i cringe. i cant believe i acted like that.

i just pushed her away more

but i cant figure out why i acted like that. why didnt i just move on like i always had before? was it from being in love with her which i hadnt been before?


it just makes me sick thinking of how i acted

[woody]

Well hey, now now. Relax. You wouldn't be the first.
Sometimes in those scenario's, post breakup, it is a mix of having felt love and missing it, regrets and then there's the whole rejection thing which can turn even the more confident of creatures into a self doubting lingering but temporary fool.
But there is light at the end of said tunnel.
Time.
yeah, it sucks to hear that one again i'm sure but hey, the stuff works.

Don't beat yourself up. Knock it off will ya?! You got heart, what's done is done; time to move on; time to start shining again...
Go throw on some music and play it loud. Smile at yourself in the mirror and know that somewhere out there right now is a lady; a lady that is for you, wondering if you exist. Let it happen... get a f__ing grip ( and by that I mean remind yourself how awesome you are and show some respect for YOU), forgive yourself because at the end of the day, there really is nothing to forgive; we are human and that is that.