So my girlfriend and I were together about 2 1/2 years and broke up 3 months ago. It was sort of long distance and I would only see her on weekends mostly, and I just moved back for good a few days ago. The break up was initiated by me but became pretty mutual, I did end up trying to get back together with her but she said she needed some time. We said we would remain friends and go on a date when I moved back to see how she felt.
I saw her the other night to sort of celebrate me coming back, and at the end of the night we started talking and she told me she was seeing someone but that she didn't really like him that much and it was just a fling/not serious. I told her that I didn't think we should talk anymore or see each other because I can't be just friends right now if she has no interest in trying again with me.
She got mad at me and cried a bit at first and tried to rationalize how the night went, her roommate ended up tagging along at the last minute uninvited and my ex was on her phone the majority of the time, it was pretty miserable for me. Anyway basically she said I'm one of the closest people to her and that she wants me to be a part of her life and that she loves me, but she thinks if we tried again it would probably just end up like before. I told her I don't want what we had and it ended for a reason, but I think it could be different now for what I felt were legitimate reasons. She agreed to an extent. She mentioned how she use to imagine us getting a place together once I got back.
After an hour of this she said she wants to go on a date with me in a week but that it doesn't mean we are getting back together. I felt that we needed a fresh start so she wants it to be like a first date so we won't have expectations. She said she doesn't want us to talk until the date. And she said she's not going to stop talking to other people unless we end up becoming something exclusive again. I was explicit with her that I do not want to go on this date if she has no real interest in us. We agreed and that was that.
Now I don't really know what I want at this point. I know I can't tell her not to be with someone, but isn't it sort of a slap in the face that she is potentially sleeping with someone else while going out on a date with me? It has sort of left me mad at her but I'm not sure if it's justified or not. I guess I'm just looking for feedback with where she is at and the situation in general. I feel confused about everything that was said and not sure how I feel or where I stand. I've wanted this chance for so long but this isn't exactly how I envisioned a new start beginning.