Recently I found out that my boyfriend was already married. He was a flight engineer and he travels a lot so we were able to see each other when he has a stop over here in our country. So our relationship lasted for 7 years without any hint that he already married. I thought he was into me because because he never failed to show how much he care for me and how much he loves me. But its all just a lie. When I found out about he's real status in life and confronted him he just told me it was not love that he feels for me just a sexual attraction. And that really hurts coz I do really love him but I cannot ruin a marriage not even the future of his children. It really hurts that for the last seven years this is all I got for loving him. I had been struggling for days to overcome this pain and it really eats me up. Sometimes I was thinking that its easier to die so I won't feel any pain at all. But then I realized that I would hurt the people who loves me if I quit my life. This is how I see this forum. I need someone to talk and get some advice so I can get through this heartache. I really don't know what to do, it really drains my strength. I hope someone can enlighten my darkest hour.