Hi everyone. Let me start by saying I'm glad I've found a place where I can voice what's in my head. I have friends and family members that I can't talk to about these things and I really need to vent. I appreciate anyone who's able to provide me with some sort of guidance.....
The last time I was in a relationship was nearly 5 years ago. I lived in my hometown and at the time I was young and full of love. My girlfriend at the time was someone that I grew up with in my early years, between (I believe) the age of 3-6. I moved away from that town that we grew up in and moved somewhere else, she contacted me through Facebook and we just hit it off from there, instant connection and instantly I found a feeling in my heart that I've never had before.... True love. She was the best thing that ever happened to me at the time... we did so much together and the number one thing that I miss the most is her touch.
Sadly, she cheated on me with another guy... I found out months before I was set to move away, and I think it's because she couldn't handle that. It was crappy of her to do it, but I've moved on.
I'm now in another stage of my life. I started a career that I've really been doing well in. I have spent most of my time on my job and have a great deal of responsibility where I am.
But now I think I'm starting to lose that feeling I once had. I haven't let a woman into my life for quite some time. I have dreams on a regular basis... dreams about being with someone, cuddling them, feeling their touch...loving someone. But each time I wake up and feel a waterfall of sorrow fall over me...some mornings it really hurts.
I guess my question is in here somewhere... I think what I'm trying to ask is something like this... the way I feel, about wanting someone to hold, wanting someone to put my arms around and just feel them... is it unreasonable? Is this thought that I have in my head unrealistic? Is it puppy love?
I'm in a real conflict. I just can't get past it. I think I need someone who can confirm what I'm thinking is real...and not fantasy.