any advice? thanx in advance

[helena24gr]

hello im Helena from Greece ..I have a long distance relationship 7 months now(12 hours distance) ,with a boy 2 years younger than me (he is 22 y old ).we knew from the start that this was meant to be difficult but love kept us together .we meet in November in a popular site in Greece but the bad thing in the story was that in a week later I was supposed to leave Greece for few months to go to Spain for an educational program organized by the university .
so we decided to go through this..we never met till the 2nd of june when I came back Greece the previous day and then on 2 of june I went to visit him in his town.
I have to admit i was his first girlfriend and sexual partner .I never had problem with this. but that months with him passed quickly passionate but with a few of problems . I mean I can understand he doesn't know a lot from relationships ( on the other hand I have a good experience ) but he treated me sometimes awful ..I mean he was hard .sometimes I thought he doesn't have any feeling at all.he states about that " no i have emotions but I'm a brain guy .I prefer logic " ..so, I have so many times forgive him about not treating me well and right before I returned my homeland Greece he said "come and visit me im not gonna hurt u again "..so I did..I have to say im in a very very bad economical status ..mum and me unemployed and the journey costed enough money ..I did my best i made it..I visited him for 7 days straight.it was wonderful..he was romantic treating me very well ..he showed me his feelings in every chance ..we did things together and the day before the day I would return home he cried a lot ..telling me he s gonna miss me so much and arranging when and how we can meet again in future..I could feel the love actually ..the first day in his home we had a condom broke so I took the emergency contraceptive pill.right after returning home i went to hospital with problems as the pill messed with my heart function. doctor said i could have died and gave me some IV medicines. I know I have a responsibility too about taking that pill. we are equal in this .the same day ,hours later in the night he went for a walk with his friend s and said that he wouldn't have internet access outside the home so whatever I needed i could give him a call. I don't know why but I felt bad and didnt call him just to see if he would call me .4 hours later I called him to say that it was bad to forget about me as the previous day I could have die . he said that he would call me and I did it right on the time he would call me too.. After that while we talk we had a misunderstanding (he thought I blamed him for my situation .of course I didn't ..he didn't hear e whole sentence ) he interrupted me and said a phrase that people in Greece say which in general is as bad as saying " if you say this again you ll get the hell " ..well I closed the phone i cried a lot ..the days passed he apologized..but I don't know what hurt the most ..the forgetting about me or the way he talked to me..I thought he was gonna fix it but 3 days ago I felt angry and complained about all that and I told him its over..so he accused me of many things like,he said I do this when I don't have his full attention or he said that im not in fact leaving him but I said its over so that he had to chase me and make me stay ..he said that he forgave me many times and he didn't like that I needed to take my time thinking .in conclusion ,he tried to tell me how I should act and forgive him .which I think is something personal ..and said that because once in the past he forgave me about something I had to forget about everything immediately so that we move on our relationship. he said many things that made me understand he believes bad things about me such that im very possessive .in other words not only he didnt try to make things right and have some respect to me but he complained and all the time he said "you left me , you broke up with me" etc.
so guys I decided to keep a distance ..I dont use my fb account and just disappear for some days so that he could understand what he did because I really do love him. guys what do you think ? please be realistic and open to me .thank you and im really sorry for the long post but it was indeed a long story

[Snow White]

Dear Helena, what a beautiful name, btw. I am going to guess you are in your early 20's. Is that what the 24 represents? In no way am I being disrespectful or making light of your feelings because of your age, but when we are young we fall in love easily and can ignore many warning signs.

If you are already having so much negativity and drama in this long distance relationship, which is difficult in itself to begin with, maybe it isn't "meant to be". Disappearing for a couple of days from your account is not mature and can't help him to understand what he did in your mind. When you truly, maturely love someone, you don't try to punish them or compare who is worse. I think you would be better with someone closer to home.