I'll try to make it short..
Ok,so there is one girl that I was in love with and we used to be really good friends
(and to be honest I still have feelings for her and that is although she rejected me
when I first told her that I like her about a half year ago and although she gave me
all the possible signs that she doesnt see me that way)
I was really blind to this situation and I always tried to please her and to support her
no matter what, and even when she told me about her ex who was "the best thing in her life"
or when she mentioned other guys she like I was there,standing and listening
like nothing happend because I never had the courage to tell her to stop but deep inside
my emotions we're going crazy and I was literally ready to kill someone.
And now,a year passed and I'm still stuck at the same point and I feel like she never
really appreciated our friendship or anything I did for her
and its not that I regret about anything, I'm really happy that we meet at the first place
and that she took a part of my life but its just not it anymore :/
I tried to remain friends with her and to "kill" my emotions but it didnt work so well
and in the past week she was kinda "disappeared" and we barely talked which makes it
even harder if thats not enough because all I'm thinking about is her
and all the memories we had through this year (again,we never had an actual relationship
we we're just friends) and i tried to ask her a couple of times if everything is alright and if shes mad at me or something
but she said that everything is fine and it didnt seem like she even cares at all and I just cant take it anymore,
it really drives me insane.
maybe I'm just overthinking or over reacting and it was probably all my fault at the first place,
I'm really not blaming her for a single thing and I'm not looking to blame anyone except for myself,
I just need your help, how to move on from someone you really love,someone who meant the world for you?
Its funny,if at the beggining of our friendship I was afraid that she will ever find one of my threads here
so now I wish she would read it and realize how much she meant for me