Hi ladies and gents ill make this short and sweet. Me and my gf have been together for 2yrs now and we've had our ups and down but loved eachother through it all however recently was probably our biggest fight and were in a sort of limbo. The reason is like a 3 or 4 part reason. 1 is a couple days before new years she told me she had to work for new years (night crew) and that she was bummed that she and I couldnt go with her friends to vegas, I told her initially we couldnt go because we couldnt afford it. Well new years eve comes around and im texting her throughout the night but getting nothing in response no big deal shes working right? Well midnight rolls around and I thought for sure she'd at least attempt to text but nope so I said ill stay up until she goes to luch or something at 3:30. I dont get anything back until 5am saying her phone was dead blah blah I was like ok. Week later her sister liked a picture on her instagram and wow did that open up a can of worms. I find out that theres no pictures of us and she actually went to vegas for new years without me and lied about it which leads me to number 2. As i found that out I also saw that she was passively flirting with dudes and taking pics like she was a fitness model. Plenty of guys were liking her pics saying omg perfection your so hot blah blah but one in particular she said "text me!" Heres number 3, that guy turns out to be her old crush from about 2yrs ago. So I thought that was fishy as hell. So i ask her hey what did you do for new years? And she said I was working remember? I said you sure you were working and boom she gets defensive saying stuff blah blah then she eventually admits she went to vegas and that guy from her instagram she hung out with including her 3 roommates and they went to LA together. Now through our entire relationship ive made it a point to not be an overbearing bf that doesnt allow her to see the light of day. I let her do what she wanted when she wanted like going to vegas with friends or going etc because I had total trust in her. But what hurt me is that she didnt tell me or lied about all of this which broke my heart because I feel like she burned my trust. I thought ive had my heart broken before but this takes the cake I felt broken sick and lost in a haze. Eventually we talked about all this and she said she was sorry and that new years eve sucked and that there was nothing between her and the dude on instagram and that shes sorry she was putting up those pics, etc. Now my question is the prospect of a fresh start does sound enticing right now because of our differences and little quarls before plus this crap, but I cant find myself to let go of her we've been through alot and I do care for her and I haven't been an angel in this relationship either(never cheated or anything just havent been the most loving guy ever again not aggressive or abusive just sometimes bland but just when im down) and think i might just be overeacting. Im lost if you were in my shoes what would you guys do?
Forgot to add she gets rather into her love and romance books now i know this is dorky to over react to but be it guys in movies or in books shes creaming her panties saying things like I wish these guys existed and wheres my "(insert romantic heros name)" like what am I chopped liver?
If it matters im 21 shes 24 so were not fresh youngins