Hi! I've been thinking about this for a long time, whether or not I should apologize. We broke up in mid-November after being together for roughly 4 months. I know we weren't together very long, but we both came into each others life at such a crucial time, and we held onto each other pretty tightly. I always felt safe and comforted in his arms. I'd go as far as to say I loved him. However, he was involved in things that I did not agree with at the time, and things I did not understand. Eventually, we broke up because of this. We had a tough break up. It was not ideally how I would have liked it to end, and I handled it very poorly and did things that I regret. I haven't let it slip my mind. We tried to remain friends and we couldn't. Perhaps it was too soon to force a friendship. I call him from time to time. We have talked 3 times since we broke up and decided friendship was not right for us at the time. He has a lot of things going on in his life and I worry so much about him. He's not quite stable. I feel like my actions when we were together and even after hurt him. I hurt him when the last thing he needed was to be hurt. That's why I never quite forgave myself. I've dated other people since, and I can't. I'm not ready. I feel like if I apologized to him, and I mean really apologized maybe I can move on. But, I just don't know if it is a good idea. The apology is genuine and I mean it. I feel like I have to get it off of my chest before I can fully move on. Let's call it closure. I think often about how I wished he knew how sorry I was. I don't want him to hate me. But, this apology is not for myself alone. He spent a lot of time blaming himself for my actions and I think he needs to hear it. He should know he's not the one who screwed up despite me blaming him at times. What do I do? :/