I had a very beautiful relationship earlier this year, he was my first love and it was going perfect. A couple of months into it he left me. I don't wanna talk about this but lets just say that this breakup was by far the worst and the best thing that has ever happened to me. And lets say am very thankful for everything I have learned.
I spent 6 long months trying to heal, gave myself as much love and care as it needed and boy I can't feel better than I do right now. I'm all happy and content. I have dozens of amazing loving friends and I enjoy my own company much more than i ever did. Lets just say that this breakup with a kick start for me to get to know myself better and to love it like i never did before.
Recently I met this guy, hmmm what can I say .. he is smart, so damn smart, with the kind of intelligence that breaks hearts. He is so decent and such a classy gentleman. I keep learning and growing every time he talks about anything. He is great and I had a HUGE crush on him yet it didn't seem like he noticed me much so I decided to just let it go.
Then one day we ran into each other at the mall and had a short lovely chat. Ever since he has been trying to gently approach me. And I have never felt more flattered.
The problem is, I am so scared! ! I'm even scared of getting to know him. I kinda built myself a different life after that breakup and I feel very happy where I am. I don't want to get into a relationship again and I feel like I still have so much to learn and do on my own. Am not ready for this. And I don't know if I will be anytime soon. Yet I really like this guy, he is so impressive and his intelligence and kindess are very heartwarming. I don't even think i liked the first one that much.
Don't know what to do, should I pull him closer or push him away. I really don't know.