So, I found my best friend freshman year of college. I've never clicked with anyone so quickly, and I know we were destined soul mates. I've been bullied and horrifically rejected by all guys since like 2nd grade, so when I went to college, and found someone that actually cared for me, and wasn't trying to humiliate me, I rejoiced! My own family doesn't even show me the side of affectionate love, but he did, we cuddled, talked, laughed, I was sure (and everyone assured me) there was no way we wouldn't be dating.
Anyways, I fell completely head over heels, and he didn't return the feelings. I was sure he just wasn't ready, because I mean why would a guy cuddle, but not want you? But months later, he told me he was gay. I've never cried a whole day before, but that day I definitely felt the signs of depression for the first time. I hope it doesn't seem like I'm over exaggerating, but he really was the guy I've always dreamed of!
He's my best friend, and currently pretty much my only friend. I don't know who else to talk to, and I don't have the money for counseling. I keep thinking I'll get over it, especially since I found out he was gay, but I still think about him daily. I'm just so attracted to him. Is there anything I can do, other than cutting it off with him completely?