For some reason, I can't get over the fact that my boyfriend dated a girl before me (LONG before me) and I feel like he loved her more than me and that she was better than me, etc. He tells me that I am the best girl in the world, he loves me more than anything, he never loved anyone else at all (although when we first got together he said he had loved this other girl, but now he says he never loved anyone but me), I am the most beautiful girl in the world, he treats me great, I could go on and on. However, I keep thinking about the past and how she must have been more special than me because she was the first. I also just feel we are such opposites (she is hispanic, short dark hair, dark eyes, average height and size and I am short, small, blonde, fair skinned, green eyed, etc) how could he be attracted to her AND to me? I think a huge part of the insecurity is that he told me when we first got together how heart broken he was over this girl and how much he loved her and it took him 2 years to get over her, but now he says he never knew what love was until he met me. He told me he was SO crazy in love with her. Yes, he says that about me now and that he never loved her at all but I wonder if he isn't lying to make me happy (I have caught him in lies when he thinks he is avoiding hurting me). I think that she is prettier than me even though logically I don't think many people would see it that way. I wonder if he still thinks of her. He doesn't talk to her (that I know of), he's not friends with her on facebook, he has nothing to do with her...in fact she is married to someone else now. They were together for 6 months (7 years ago) and we have been together for 2 years so why do I worry about this. I was with a guy for 5 years before him who I admit I loved and I bet he doesn't feel this way about my ex. We treat each other great and don't tell him about these insecurities. I just wish that I could stop thinking about it. I wish he hadn't told me anything about his past relationships when we got together so I wouldn't have to think about it. Someone please let me have it for how crazy I am about this (nicely)..or am I? I just wish I could stop thinking about it..I think this could be the guy that I marry. He says he wants to marry me and be with me forever...
I'm 24 and he's 25 btw.