Ok guys, so yeah i know what i did is wrong and i finally own up to the fact that I cheated on my boyfriend last weekend. I feel bad, of course, but I don't think i want to tell him.
What happened was two guys invited me and my friend home after the bar. I really didn't want to go, but was sort of forced to go to accompany my friend out of protection and camaraderie. The thing is, after talking with him at the club, I kind of liked the guy I went home with. I found him physically attractive, and he was someone I could respect a lot. I think he was initially putting on a facade to impress us, and I'd like to see his true self more. I tried to get out of the "intimate" situation with him by saying we go to sleep, but he pursued it nevertheless, and eventually I just caved. I told him at the last possible moment (after some um kissing...) that I had a boyfriend... I probably should have told him when I first met him at the club, but I found him interesting, and I thought that if I revealed this fact he'd stop talking to me. Anyway, so after I told him the revelation, he said he was frustrated, which is understandable... but he was still nice and respectful to me.
I really want to keep in touch with him and have been thinking about him a bit... I thought that we got along well and I felt comfortable telling him some intimate personal details, and he with me. He doesn't have my info but I can contact him. Do you think he will ignore me if I contact him or friend him? Do you think he dislikes me or wants nothing to do with me now? How would you feel in this situation?
The thing about my boyfriend is that i HAD BEEN generally content with the long-distance thing... but after this, and feeling that rush of meeting someone new, I kind of want to explore new relationships and keep my options open... There are things about my boyfriend that I don't like and would like to change. I think it's wiser to not tell him what happened. What you don't know won't hurt you.