I'd really appreciate some advice from anyone right now!
I've been with my boyfriend for nearly 2 years, we have a great relationship and felt like we really had something special, people comment on how sickening happy we are together and how perfect we for each other. He constantly tells me how much he loves me and wants to be with me forever.
Last year I found out he was looking at badoo, but he said he only scans through it looking, doesn't interact and he has a bit of a problem with things like that. (He is addicted to his phone). We worked through it but the trust was always a bit broken. Last week I caught him out on another dating app, actually messaging someone. I confronted him and once again he says he has a problem and a compulsion and doesn't know why he does it. We live quite far apart but think we manage the long distance well, we try to only spend a week apart at any time. He says he is unhappy while we are apart and his default when he's unhappy is to look at these sites. He's admitted he needs help but at the same time says he struggles with my low self esteem. He finds it frustrating I don't think I'm beautiful. But that's not an answer to cheat right!?
So while I appreciate he says he will get help he hasn't yet arranged anything and I honestly don't know if I can get over not being able to trust him. The deceit and lying has killed me. I don't know if we'll ever have back what we had.
So confused and would appreciate any advice