not really a relationship problems...

[reynie]

ok, here it is...
i'm a 20 years old girl, been in 3 relationship b4 (i noe its not many ^^)
2 r not serious r/s but da 3rd one is da one dat i'm crazy about... well, only 4 a short time.
U see, da shortest r/s i hav is only a week, yup a WEEK... n even da one i'm serious about only lasted for more than 3 months only. Juz when i thought i can b serious about da last r/s, things doesn't seem 2 let me. I suddenly got bored one day, and ask 4 a break up. since then, its been over 2 years i didn't hav a bf. Pathetic?
hehe, not really. Its not dat i hav high standard @ anything, i mean, da guy i usually like is not the most popular guys in school @ appealed in other area, it just dat i like them but they dun like me. and all da 3 guys i've dated b4, r all popular guys at school, who, i dun reli like at 1st, but becuz of my frens persuasion, i accept them. yeah, who dun like 2 b gf of a popular guy in school? ( i noe not everyone, but at least me r one type dat r like dat)
but at da end of my 3rd r/s, i juz realize, a r/s w/o love makes me bored and even da cutest guy can't make my heart waver. it is cruel 4 me 2 end da short r/s, but there's no point if i dun have feelings 4 them rite? its better 2 end it now than 2 let it continue and hurts them later. and so, i started a mission 2 find myself an ideal man who can melts my heart.
But its not easy as i thought. I wanted 2 started as frens, but they wanted more than that. I dun mind, but i juz want it 2 b a slow r/s, cuz a fast growing r/s is wat makes me bored easily. i dun require a romantic guy @ even a guy who can understand my feelings 100%, juz a guy who would... emmm, how 2 say... a guy who would b a bf when they should, n b a fren when i need a fren, ummm... yeah, kind of complicated i guess... n becuz of dat, i seems 2 become phobia of getting close 2 any guy. as i say, i wanted 2 stay as frens 1st, but they wanna more, and so, i've become so choosy in choosing my guys friends. When they started 2 tell me they like me, i will immediately break my r/s wif 'em, even a fren-fren r/s. cuz i juz dunno how 2 face them after i rejected them. it is cruel, but when my heart tells me 2 do it, i'll juz do it.

n my prob is... well, kind of a question, should i stay da way i am? i mean, reject them as soon as they tell me they like me, when i dun like them? @ explain 2 them dat i dun mean 2 reject them, but i think its so fast n i need more time 2 understand them. but i juz dunno how i will react if i tell them dat i dun like them, but wants 2 b juz a fren 4 dis time being. its juz dat frustating when dis kind of problems repeating again n again...

i am good at giving opinions and solutions 2 my frens r/s problems, but when i got into one myself, i seems so confused and can't find any good solution...
*sorry, my english is bad... huhu... but any opinion r accepted, but dun b 2 harsh, 'kay? ^^

[Gigabitch]

I think that's a serious emotional problem, reynie. Why is your heart so cold?

[Moonchild]

Eh. Believe me, you don't want to find yourself saying yes to a guy you don't like just to be nice. I've done it. Three times. I regret every one. You're not leading them on, and personally, I think that's a good thing.