Serious problem that no one I know will help me out with! Advice?

[perfecto]

I'm pretty disfigured (not to the point of people pointing at me or children running and crying). It's bad to the point of people just staring. Whenever I walk down the sidewalk to a store I'll be waiting at a street corner waiting for cars to go so I can walk across the street to the store. What'll happen is as I'm waiting I'll see people gawking and just staring at me.

Then, I'll go outside on my porch to sit on a swing and my neighbors will stop what they're doing and gawk. I'm afraid to drive because I'm very sensitive and it hurts my feelings when they stare. I live with my very conservative grandma and I CONSTANTLY ask her what's wrong with my face and she says nothing. And that's the end of that.

My grandma will say I'm paranoid or that I'm imagining them looking at me. I AM NOT PARANOID OR IMAGINING them looking at me-- I wish I was but I'm NOT! None of my other family members care. My sister is the only truthful person I know, she told me that I don't have much of a jaw. That my face is short and square and that my facial features belong on a longer more fuller face. I wrote and sent pictures to a well known surgeon in my area and he couldn't see any any problem. He did say I could come in to his office in person. I'm afraid to say it to his face that I'm stared at and I don't know how to be assertive and be like you know what? I deal with this everyday and your trying to say it's all in my head? I wish my heart wasn't surounded by pillows or I think my problem would have been solved by now!

I very seldomly go out, I've never had a BF and I'm without a job to make money to finance plastic surgery. It's hard to job hunt when you have no car! No one understands and labels me paranoid! I'm not and I don't go out looking for people to stare and I'm not self-conscious but am now cause of the staring! If you were me what would you do? I'm not a troll BTW why would I waste my time writing this?

[Sonrisa]

how about you posting a picture here? we can't really discuss anything unless we know exactly what it is.

BTW my friend did have a jaw implant and is very happy with it.

[perfecto]

I'm unable to post any pictures right now because I'm on my little sister's DSI (it's a nintendo type thing that allows you to surf the web and my older sister has a laptop but won't let me post any pictures). This DSI thing won't allow me to post pics.

I'll have to wait until I can go to a relative's house. I should be able to post some pics tomorrow evening if I can go over to the relative's house.

Were you joking about jaw implant? Is there such a thing?

[Lovable]

Hiya starlet2010 & smileyface!

How many more alias are you going to come up with here?

You ARE A TROLL!!!

[Sonrisa]

^^^why so random?

[Lovable]

Cause it's the same person, asking the same things over & over again under different names. It gets old hun.

I went to read the thread thinking it was somebody that did need help only to be reminded of the senseless ramblings of starlet2010 asking the same types of things before she was banned.

Sorry if I was harsh, sonrisa, but it gets old hun.

[perfecto]

I am not a troll!!!!

[Sonrisa]

hey, i don't mind as long as your reasoning is valid.

[qwertz]

Are you serious? You have a square jaw- nothing ott, but apart from that you look pretty.

[warriormaiden]

There's a problem?
I don't see anything. Honest to god, you look like a very normal, pretty girl. Is there something I'm missing? I don't see anything!

[perfecto]

I'm mentally stable and I don't understand why this is happening! I have no mental illness (paranoia). I literally stay in my house all day because of this. I go out rarely.

I think I'm beautiful but it just doesn't make any sense to me! Advice?

[vashti]

jeezus. It must be winter break again, and here come the bored kids.

[MerryH]

Yes, I have advice for you.

Tell a doctor that you think you're disfigured and that everyone stares at you so you're scared to leave the house and that your heart is "surrounded by pillows." Also tell them how you think you're going to be stalked by some random man from your past. Then come tell us what the doctor said. Don't come back here until you've done this.

[Mish]

I will explain my thoughts visually


This is a disfigured face





This is a mildly disfigured face





This face is normal





Disfigured





Normal

[Lovable]

All bullshit aside, you need professional help.

You need to step away from the computer, stop making tons of alias's & talk to a doctor about these issues you have. No amount of different names you make here, different little spins on the same threads you make is going to help you out of what is troubling you.

I doubt anybody here is qualified enough to help you, you need to talk to a counselor/psychiatrist/your doctor about these thoughts/feelings you are having, WE can't help you here.