I have been divorced for about a year and recently started dating a woman that I have fallen head over heels in love with. I am 41 and she is 42. I have been dating her for 6 months and at some point after I started dating her she disclosed to me that she is stripping for a living. She has told me this is only temporary. She recently moved from California to Texas and the job she moved for fell through so this is kinda a last resort. She is in the process of starting her own business selling insurance which is what she did in Cali. My question is I feel so much anxiety from her working there eventhough it is only temporary. It doesn't help that in my previous marriage my ex had cheated on me so I have some serious trust issues and am stigmatized by what I view a stripper as. I mostly keep my feelings to myself and it is startign to really effect me personally. To make matters worse last night I was helping her clean up her computer and she had pictures of past boyfriends, etc on her pc. I know she has a past and I know she has dated some scummy guys. She has told me she loves me and has never met as good as man as me. I want to stay in the relationship but I am just so darn confused emotionally. I am a christian and so is she (eventhough what she is doing). She isn't a really mushy person so she isn't really good at giving me that warm fuzyy feeling before she goes to work or just in general. I am sure she has some scars from past relationships so she keeps her guard up. This anxiety is effecting my ability to focus at work and with my kids. Am I being played for a fool? Sometimes I feel like I am going craczy. LOL