I met her 6 months ago and thought I'd met he most amazing little lady in the world who treated me well with compassion and love and after 3 months the "I love you's" had already begun and that this woman was the one for me.
After receiving terrible news about my mother and having to go back to my home country and spend a month with her while trying to fight cancer, I thought I was leaving this woman for a short interlude and could carry on our loving relationship when I returned.*
I received loving messages in the first week and everything seemed fine. Obviously this was a tricky and emotional time for me and I needed some outside support from my girlfriend (maybe this was the start of the finish). Well things quickly went downhill and her sudden standoffishness became quite obvious. She didn't bother returning my calls and not replying to messages. You can imagine the emotional distress this caused me on top of having to see my mother in pain and almost giving *up the fight against this terrible disease.
Well I returned back to London thinking we would work things out and there must have been an obvious misunderstanding that needed to be worked through. Well after a few rude brush-offs and then finally sitting down face to face she went ahead and told me there are too many variables and she doesn't think things are gona work ( she is doing her Phd, which may also be a big factor in this but I felt It was being used more as an excuse).
She ended it officially over the phone and it's been nothing but heartache for me since then.
I feel that maybe instead of expecting her to be there to support me I should have got back to work and soldiered on and not been such an emotional cat and that would have worked to keep the relationship going.
I bumped into her in the street a while back and she could not even look me in the eye and just kept trying to talk and look at my friend who i was there with.
I have never felt such pain and rejection in such a difficult time in my life and am looking for advice on how to deal with this form an outside perspective.*
I feel that if it was the other way round and I had to take are of her we would still be together and everything would be fine (man takes care of women, standard way of the world) but just because it was me who needed a some care things fell apart.
Any advice will be much appreciated.