I feel like im slipping...

[qwertz]

Why don't you buy your son a video game system to keep him busy?

I dont know whether this was an absolutely shitty attempt at humour, or just stupid. I will go for the latter so as not to get pissed off.

[qwertz]

What peeves me is that he knows you are vulnerable, he knows people have been "using" you (on his recommendation I might add) and yet his point of view "If they can do it, so can I".

How do you mean "using" me? I'm not sure how that conclusion can be made? I made my own decisions..albeit bad ones.

[Mish]

How do you mean "using" me? I'm not sure how that conclusion can be made? I made my own decisions..albeit bad ones.

I'm sorry qwerty, but I'm not going to repeat all of the detail you posted about your experience with the last two guys (the guys for which you ignored my recommendations to stay away from, because they would leave you worse off than you were before). I'm not going to repeat all of that because you're feeling better and I don't want to change that. I'll just leave you with; it's possible to make bad decisions, which would lead to people using you.

[dewilliams2]

I dont know whether this was an absolutely shitty attempt at humour, or just stupid. I will go for the latter so as not to get pissed off.

I don't think he realized your son has autism...at least I'm pretty sure thats the case.

[qwertz]

I'm sorry qwerty, but I'm not going to repeat all of the detail you posted about your experience with the last two guys (the guys for which you ignored my recommendations to stay away from, because they would leave you worse off than you were before). I'm not going to repeat all of that because you're feeling better and I don't want to change that. I'll just leave you with; it's possible to make bad decisions, which would lead to people using you.

Im not sure what my boss has to do with anything, i know you advised me not to go there( you know i dont ignore your advise on purpose!) but he was/is a very decent guy and did absolutely nothing wrong and certainly didnt "use" me.

Im well aware i make bad decisions- i need shaking sometimes, but I dont see how i was "used" ..cheated on, yes, but that doesnt equate to being used.

[dewilliams2]

Well if you can find somebody to watch him for a day I think you'd benefit greatly from going out with your best girlfriend, hit the mall and buy yourself something nice that you wouldn't normally get for yourself and go get a pedicure, manicure, and facial (before anybody says anything I mean the kind they do in spas)...you know all that stuff girls like.

I think you just need a recharge thats all but since your son talked today I'm sure that made you feel pretty good to. Maybe your just going to have to accept that your going to have up days and down days and just prepare yourself for that. Maybe if braced the down days won't be as bad and the good days you'll really appreciate.

As I've said before I do admire you for raising a child with autism. Its not an easy thing to raise a child period...add autism onto it and it becomes increasingly more difficult.

[qwertz]

I don't think he realized your son has autism...at least I'm pretty sure thats the case.

DM is MORE than aware my son has autism.

[vashti]

My autistic nephew LIVES for video games.

just sayin'....

[vashti]

I heard autistics were money on the video games

Who cares though, it was a stupid idea

It wasn't stupid. You are right - a lot of them ARE very good with tech stuff.

[qwertz]

Yeh, sorry dm, think i was a bit nadgy on that answer, i guess i just took it as you meaning it was as simple as.

Alot of autistic children do love video games etc, but my son isnt one of them..which im glad about actually- i dont need anything else distracting him as its hard enough to get his attention in the first place!!!

[Kiechi]

I wish all the good in this world for you Qwerty. I don't know why, I don't even know you. But for some reason, I just really believe you deserve it.

[Charlie Boy II]

Because it does, I don't need to explain something this obvious. If he didn't want a piece of ass delivered to his front door he would've framed his "suggestion" differently.

What peeves me is that he knows you are vulnerable, he knows people have been "using" you (on his recommendation I might add) and yet his point of view "If they can do it, so can I".

???? you've lost it mate. I was just trying to cheer her up. I'm actually not some sex-crazed deviant.

I'm glad to hear you're filing better Qwert. I've said it before, but I'm really admiring of the way you are with your son and I'm admiring of you generally. You've got a good soul.

[qwertz]

Sooooooooo, thought I would give a little update...

I've been on anti depressants for 3 or so weeks now, my doctor had been recommending them for a while and I finally had enough of feeling like crap so gave them a go. They kinda made me feel worse for the first 10-14 days but this last week ive noticed a difference..its almost like i dont give a shit about things that only a couple of weeks ago, would have really got me down and in a week i havent cried one tear...the last time i went a day without crying was over 18 months ago!
It cant be a bad thing, things are easier to deal with. Ive also seen a counsellor a couple of times and things are ok there too.

I finally feel like im starting to move forward with my life again.


Now, party time

[Charlie Boy II]

Yeah, DM absolutely swears by them. Good to hear you're feeling better.

[qwertz]

Thanks, i dont plan on them being a long term thing, but just to help get me out of this rough patch.